so i have been under a lot of stress lately: residency interviews, struggling with independence from my parents, dealing with my mother's history if illness and the fear that it would once again become an issue. things that would stress anyone. so in sitting with my wonderful boyfriend and venting, he helped me to realize that i have been much more stressed out than i let myself realize. after he listened very well, he asked me a good question- what would God want from me in these situation. hmmmm. i had to stop and think. i took a moment and prayed, and i learned two things:
1. i need to validate my stress. i often think about all the people that have things worse off than me. and God bless 'em, there are many people in worse circumstances. but i have to allow myself the space to feel the way that i feel and address it.
2. God just wants me to trust him. all of my stressing and worrying about my mother's health or my life's next step or whether or not to look for a job this spring is of no consequence. my worrying is wasteful. just take action toward what i want and trust in God that things will be as the should.
letting go,
monday morning diva
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